I’m not playing around anymore.
I keep telling myself, “All of this pretending and performing – these coping mechanisms that I’ve developed to protect myself from feeling inadequate and getting hurt – have to go. No more hiding in the cocoon and being afraid of breaking through the shell. It’s time to come out.”
This wall I built, I realize now I have allowed it to prevent me from growing into the gifts from YHVH. I understand that I felt I needed these protections when I was small. I understand that I believed my wall could help me secure all of the things I thought I needed to feel worthy of love and belonging, but too many times I still search in that deep, in that longing for something Greater and now, I have Yeshua, but I still long for the depth in relationship with Him that I am desiring and in time that will come, hopefully sooner rather than later.
Time is growing short.
There are unexplored connections with others ahead of me.
I won’t live the rest of my life worried about what other people think.
I was born worthy of love and belonging.
Courage, joy and peace are coursing through me. I was made to live and love with my whole heart. It’s time to show up and be seen and stop hiding in fear.